Jules Suman †

Finding my voice as a wife, mother, teacher, and a follower of Jesus

God is calling… October 12, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — julessuman @ 7:37 pm

Originally posted on Brian Suman:

godiscallingme2If God is calling what is He calling you to? For some of us we feel like we go through our whole life seeking our purpose. Seeking a way to be able to give back, be meaningful, or have some existence. But as we go on the continued search for a title or position to fill in work or ministry, do we miss what God has called us to?

From prison, Paul writes a letter to the people of Ephesus summarizing our call.

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Being Human

Filed under: Uncategorized — julessuman @ 7:43 am

There are a lot of things that are hard about being human. Life is messy. Sometimes it’s hard. And at times it just sucks. I think that the hardest thing about being human is emotions. Emotions are powerful! They can be debilitating. Sometimes they can’t be contained. Now before I go any further I will acknowledge that there are plenty of good, positive emotions that arty the same attributes as the bad ones. For example, pure joy can overflow and cause tears of happiness. But there are also plenty of “negative” emotions that are just as strong, if not stronger. One of these is anger. It can be ugly. It will control the mind and the tongue, causing thoughts and words that are not truly reflective of the person speaking them. Sadness, hurt, pain and loneliness kind of all wrap up into one big pile of messiness that can weigh down and smother ones spirit. I think that one of the hardest feelings I have dealing with is when someone I love is experiencing sadness or pain. This feeling should really have a name of its own. I have learned how to cope with (perhaps not in the best way) my own emotions…but for me to watch someone I love suffer through anger or sadness is nearly overwhelming. But the flip side is even sweeter too. The joy of watching someone you love be at peace and filled with their own joy is amazing (sorry that word is so overused). So I’m not really sure what my point is (if there is one at all) Exocet that I am truly fascinated with the ability to feel things the way we do as humans. It makes me wonder how Jesus dealt with his array of emotions while he was human. The Bible talks about his anger. And sorrow. And grief. And yet we know he never once sinned even as he dealt with those emotions. I’m fascinated by his mind and his thoughts. And it brings me comfort to know that since he did walk the earth as a human that he felt the same things I do. He understand my prayers when I ask for help dealing with my human emotions.


What should I expect?

Filed under: Uncategorized — Brian Suman @ 6:06 am

Originally posted on Brian Suman:

expectationsThe definition of expectation: a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future. Said another way, it’s seeking to prevent disappointment by establishing in advance what can realistically be achieved or delivered by an undertaking or course of action.

An expectation is something we place on someone else. Something some of us place on God.

In our yearning for the expectation to be met, we envision joy, satisfaction, or something given to us. We expect another person to do as we would want them to and as long as we focus on the intent, another result is never considered. The other result that disappoints. The result that leaves us with hurt feelings and disappointment. As many times as we have all been disappointed we seem wired to repeat the cycle.  To set a bar that someone will fall short of.

Why do we do this?…

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Love Her Through Me October 7, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — Brian Suman @ 9:04 pm

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Bible heartFrustration is birthed out of unmet expectations. Isn’t that so true? I often think of that statement when I am frustrated over something and I try to be real with myself to understand if my feelings are truly being driven by what I want. James 4:1 says, “What is causing the quarrels and fights among you? Don’t they come from the evil desires at war within you”? Did my selfishness get in the way? Am I thinking of the others involved or supporting the outcome of a situation even if I gain nothing?

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Taking the Field September 27, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — julessuman @ 12:13 pm

Originally posted on Brian Suman:

fnlightsWhat parallel does Friday night football and our walk with Christ represent?

We all the love a big game right? The pre-game festivities (church), the smack talk (fellowship), and the social media blitz leading up to the big event. It is a craze that can keep us pumped for days, maybe even weeks, in advance. We have a game plan. We are fighters. We are champions.

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Neapolitan Ice Cream September 13, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — julessuman @ 2:25 pm

Originally posted on Brian Suman:

icecreamMy thoughts this week wrapped around following Jesus, watching cancer fight against my father’s well-being, and trials of everyday life. It’s like Neapolitan ice cream where all colors stand alone but can be blended together easily. But life is not like a bowl of ice cream and our ultimate pleasure and relief doesn’t come in carton.

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Caught in a Storm September 1, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — julessuman @ 11:45 am

Originally posted on Brian Suman:

boat in a stormThis past week was a challenging one to say the least. There are multiple things going on in my life and I wasn’t able to spiritually brace myself for the storm that hit me. (The problem there is ‘I’ wasn’t able instead of letting Jesus battle for me.) It hit so hard that it caused me to study less, pray less, and even question my walk with God. Not trying to be over dramatic, but it hit pretty hard. I like to be real and transparent and share these things with others because I know that I am not alone. I am not the only one that asks, “why God?” and I am not the only one that feels as if their walls are caving in and the implosion is immanent. 

“You don’t have enough faith,”Jesus told them. “I tell you the truth, if you had faith even…

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